The second blog in English, and one that lived very short. I actually created it only to comment on GRRM's blog, but still, I tried to write. I failed. Not for the first time.
Mój drugi blog w języku angielskim, ale cóż, długo nie pożył. Stworzyłam go właściwie tylko po to, żeby komentować wpisy na blogu GRRM, ale i tak próbowałam pisać... Nie udało się. Zresztą nie pierwszy raz. __________________
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Mar. 24th, 2010 at 5:51 PM
I've never really managed to write a blog for a long time, but I love to go back to it, telling myself that his time it will work better. What's funny, I still believe myself. Anyway, each time it's better, so we will see. At least I no longer force myself to write just anything. That's what I've finally learned.
It seems, that to me the very next days are going to be a great school-free occasion to sleep for more than six hours a day and maybe deal with some of the numerous plans I always have. Recently I was so sick of everything I was being forced to do, that nearly all I was eventually doing was reading and just keeping far from everyday life.
Now all I need to do is a silly computer game I have to create for our informatics lessons. I just love our teacher - he gave us two months or so, told us to make a game and all he's done since was interrupting us by showing some funny YT videos. Two weeks ago I didn't even know in what language I'd been writing and I doubt if my project partner did. Anyway, just two days ago I've managed the program at least to allow the user to move the ball that should be moved. I'm quite proud of that.
Uff... I'm just having an inf-lesson and I feel like each minute is passing even more slowly than the previous one. Bartek's disappeared and I'm here all alone with all these wise nerds working on their genius computer RPG and card games. And there is no one to talk to, as the silence would make each word sound like a thunder, six guys listening.
It's not that bad, though. Yesterday I was to have a short history test, speech in English to say and huge test in Polish (as usually I've hardly touched the book we'd had to read, I hate this romantic blubbering). Yet only the third thing took place and I guess it was easy enough. Today it was not that bad once again, however I still hate Tuesdays. I doubt anything can truly change that.
Oops, he saw I was doing something else. Nevermind.
Anyway, I can't believe I was so stressed on Saturday. I left my friends to go home and do something to school, I didn't and still nothing happened. Nothing demotivates as something like that. I can feel I'm no longer able to learn anything at home. Happens. Though I regret I didn't stay with girls after all. They are no my closest friends, yet it was so nice, I would never expect so much warmth from them. Maybe not even from my closest friends, heh.
Perhaps I should write something about the tragedy in Smolensk. I can't. I don't understand what's happened yet. And there've been to many people talking 'bout the same things all over and over again.
Just one more day and I'm gonna be free for another two. Great.
I've just returned from my guitar lesson and it made my day. I'd been stressed, 'cause three weeks had passed and I still wasn't prepared and couldn't play the piece I had to (Toccata and Fuga by Bach) even very slowly. Yet, it appeared that my teacher'd forgotten, that we (I have lessons together with another guy) were to learn the whole. And even he was not prepared and as he'd not played it for such a long time, at the very beginning I was actually the best at playing the mos confusing part.
You know, such a small thing, but when you feel so numbed as I've recently, it gives a great deal of energy. I hope I won't waste it.
Oh, my mum've just said Can you tell me, why am I so sleepy at this time? Looks like I'm not the only one to feel like that. Well, I could actually see it recently among my friends at school, but hey, that's something different.
I wonder, why this system always detects my location badly. Tomorrow at school it claimed I was in Gdansk and now, when I'm actually nearer Gdansk, it showed Krosno. I don't even know that town...? I mean, I've heard this name, but never been there and dunno where it is.